感觉一个慈祥的母亲，又向我张开了怀抱。老李，赚钱的事就交给你了！我继续我的艺术家道路去！！

感觉一个慈祥的母亲，又向我张开了怀抱。老李，赚钱的事就交给你了！我继续我的艺术家道路去！！

北京少有这样带绿色的冬天，但还是很萧瑟。

长时间的单身生活让我养成了和猫说话的习惯。每天早晨，他们听到闹钟都会扑到我胸口来，看着我，我却总觉得很辜负他们的期待，来不及挨个摸两下，就要匆匆忙忙去上班。

昨天晚上回来头疼的厉害。想想最近发生的这么多事情，真想什么都不管，一头扎进被子里睡死算了。但是昨天又好冷…我费了好大的力气，把床挪到窗边挨着暖气，这才脚蹬暖气管，半昏半醒地看着电视，脚热腿冷地睡去。睡了半小时，就头疼醒，起来到厕所干呕n次，再躺下。

躺在一片黑暗里的时候，悲从中来。这种念头真可怕。

早晨起来，又下大雪了。我匆匆忙忙地出门，还和卖早点的小哥开着玩笑，好像我们谁都从来不曾有过痛苦和烦恼。

阿满很偏心，因为她始终记恨小俊身上农村猫和仇人混合的味道，只要小俊靠近，她就狠狠用她的三白眼瞪这个小呆子，有时候还赶得他满屋跑，一边追一边骂：“你这只狗，让你喝水把脚泡进去！你这只狗！！！我就是仇视男性！！！”

于是，终于，今天，小俊鼓起男人的自尊，离家出走了。

事情是这样的，我回家，开门，开灯，关门，换鞋，换衣服，上厕所，历时近20分钟，没有看到小俊平时这个最黏人的马屁精出现。一？？奇怪压真奇怪，这个狗，晃食盆，没来；晃猫粮袋子，没来；最后把罐头都打开了，还是没来。全家找遍了，也没有，都快半个小时过去了，我才拿了钥匙出门去找。门口？没有。下一层？没有。一直走到二楼，才看到这个狗猫着个腰，正躲在墙角哭呢。看见我来抓他，小男生嘴唇一咬，毅然决然一个转身，又往楼下跑去了…娘西皮，害我穿个睡裙，一路追到楼道门口才抓回来，这个小呆子在我温暖的怀抱里还哭喊呢：“你让我走～我要找我小黑叔去！！我要找我罗哥去！！！这个家容不下我，你们这些妇女！！！！”

妇女？！这两个字岂能在我家出现？！当时只见一道黑影从防盗门内闪出，原来是皇太后阿满使出绝技，将逆子痛打一顿。小志这个势力眼在一旁嗑着瓜子，也忍不住挖苦了他：“说你呆，你真呆，刚买了猫粮和猫砂你就离家出走。下周又要下雪了侬晓得伐？！”

结果，小俊还是没能在这场精心策划的战役中夺取自己的男人地位，只好又缩在冰冷的床脚，孤独地舔着自己潮湿的前爪，忧郁地睡去。

幸福应该是和喜欢的人一起去创造的。

一起加油，小亮！

身体就会变成和他连通的容器

要么就像两个没有距离的人

去了同一个地方

醒着的人被留下来。

当迷恋一个人的时候

也总是仇视他

也许只是因为他没能像你幻想的那样

披着长发在远处望着你

但看到他

就说不出话

时间被拉长了，静止下来

烟雾在眼睛里渐渐升起。

2009年4月5日

小雷音

突然很好笑地想到，鳥这个字，水太多，所以他们才总要迁徙、漂泊。

下着小雨，山都是湿的，发出淡淡的蓝色。风很大，我抱着书包坐在门边。车越开越快，开始爬坡，于是我们一人点了一根香烟抽。烟在风里很快就化了。马达的声音很大，风的声音很大，于是我们都没有说话。我们就那样静静坐着。

我看着车外湿漉漉的山和暗蓝色的树影，感觉到他就在我背后默默看着我和山。我心里充满了幸福。

特此纪念。

哈哈，我最爱的WFMU9月14号DJ/Rupture的节目里播了VagusNerve新专辑Lopan里面的第三首歌，还有评论如下。

"Chinese cosmic" it goes on like this for nearly 30 minutes! 

Alan Cummings写信来给了另外一个评论http://brainwashed.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=7853&Itemid

=1

“Rarely is there something that could be truly described as "ethereal noise," but this is a prime example.”

哈哈！

VAGUSNERVE Lo Pan (Utech) cd 14.98  
This fellow we know recently wrote an entertaining book called Get High Now, no not about drugs, but about other sorts of highs, non-drug related natural techniques to enjoy "sensory trips" and the like. Quite a few of them are sound-based (the book even references Ryoji Ikeda at one point) but in a major oversight, a recommendation to "listen to VagusNerve" was left out! 'Cause it's definitely a trip when you really settle into a session with VagusNerve on the stereo or better yet headphones - likewise of course with a lot of other drone musics too, why do you think we like the stuff so much? Loud enough, it'll either stimulate, or at least simulate, a high.
So, c'mon, get high now with Chinese guitar/laptop duo VagusNerve. Someone calling herself VAVABOND is the laptopper, and Li Jianhong (of D!O!D!O!D!) is the guitar player. We're already considerable fans of Li's solo psych/noise guitar excursions (his disc on aRCHIVE for instance, and a fantastic new one on PSF, Classic Of the Mountains And Seas) so we were excited when we found out he's half of VagusNerve. We were also interested to learn what exactly the lo pan of the title is. As the liner notes explain, it's a traditional Chinese mytho-technological device, a sort of Feng Shui compass. A rotating disc in a wooden base, with several concentric rings of Chinese characters to which the needle in the middle can point, indicating various arcane things.
VagusNerve are not actually using a lo pan to make this music, rather it's inspired by a dream Li had about a giant lo pan in a forest that could be used to summon UFOs! That's pretty much the title of the first track, in fact. And swarming cosmic UFOs looking for mystical feng shui advice definitely could be making some of the sounds heard here. It's nervous, very active drone musick, buzzing and zapping and crackling and chiming, featuring 3 long tracks (8:21, 21:05, 28:27). There's much moody sci-fi windiness, and what sounds like flocks of otherworldly birds crying to one another, amidst thick grinding whooshing sizzling drones, spinning and swirling. Feedback a la underwater whale calls, resonant "long wire" like vibrations, insectoid buzzings, and mechanical rhythms all feature in the the mix. It's a sonic delirium, wherein Urthona is jamming opaquely with KK Null, if that hypothetical comparison is of any help to you. 
Definitely another cool Utech release, a label we've been raving about lately for many good reasons (Horseback, Gog, Aluk Todolo, Blood Fountain...). Regarding Li Jianhong, hopefully we'll be reviewing that new PSF disc of his very soon. And, by the way, he also made several appearances on that An Anthology Of Chinese Experimental Music box set we listed last time. 

不知道前缘，不知道后果，哪有资格说什么为谁好、为谁的将来。